interrupting transmission..
EUNICE :D
♥ edwin chan!
nineteen.
01 august 1990
ngeeannpoly. TRM.
hip hoppy hop

Check on the lightning bolts! :)
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
precious.
how nice.
i slept at 530am in the mornin.
and woke up at ard 645am. =__=
closed my eyes for less den an hr.
hhhaas. woke up early go temple to attend ishi's 49th day since death.
reached at 930am.
sat there stoned till 11 plus am.
got an album of his own creations.
listenin to it now.
*MISSES* :((

left the place early and meet kailun for studies.
manage to complete BMGT's first 4 topics.
how wonderful! :D
went hm at 9pm.

ARGHH!
lack of sleep. but got to mug 2nite. =.=

eunice:
GOGOGO!
OLEOLEOLE! :DDDDDD


You have to realize that not everyone is the same.
Not everyone in the world is the same.
Everyone's characters are just as different,
moulded by the surroundings and experiences they grew up with.
And not everyone will understand
or be able to do things the way that you would do.

If you feel you understand what im trying to get at,
and you can comprehend
and would like to take the effort to understand me.
Then im truly grateful.
And i sincerely appreciate it from the bottom of my heart.
And i want you to know that
i'd gladly take the same effort to understand you,
and not only be here for you,
but here for you in a way that i feel you'd want
or will be the best for you...
-- extracted.

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Sunday, July 29, 2007
RAHH!!
FATS FATS FATS!
ohmygod.
i seems to be expanding horizontally day by day.
not vertically sia.
RAHH!
i reali need to cut down on my chocolates, sweets and tibits.
i shld plan out a nice diet plan.
wahahas. =X

pain at the stomach area is actin up almost everyday.
not onli at nite now.
hurhur.
i guess its not gastric pains.
cos it jus doesn feel like gastric. =.=
not due to stomach cramps.
cos im not havin "it" at the moment!
i jus feel slightly pain at some times.
and my stomach is bloated even when im damn hungry.
ARGHH!
wads wrong wid me man?

MOODLESS.
real bad mood at tis time.
and before i start work.
haiis. feel so troubled.
i reali dunno wad to do. how can i help u?
im being so irresponsible.
im feelin so BAD and GUILTY.
addin STRESS to u, without reali knowin how u will feel.
if i were u, seriously, i will collapse.


SORRY,
i gave up easily. i got no confident in makin it a success.
i got no time to commit to it.
i need to pia my work to earn money.
im now facin tremendous financial stress at hm.
i reali cant help. but to say sorry.

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Tuesday, July 17, 2007
HMM.
yeh baby.
nth BIG happened. :)

stayed back in sch till 5pm to do CIP project.
hhhas.
smuggled 4 bubble tea, 2 hot dog buns, 1 choco puff, 1 bag of cookies and 1 pack of snacks.
ALL put into celestia's bag.
whahahs. =X
den go to have dinner wid my "bfren".
LOLs.


everyone says i deserve a better one.
do i? hais. i dunno.
i dun tink im GOOD enough to have a better one.
im such an utterlybadandirritatinggirl.
who wants?

NO ONE.

if you love something, let it go.
if it comes back, its yours.
if it doesn't, it never was.
(taken from ryan's blog)

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Monday, July 9, 2007
GO AWAY!
my life is gettin terrible.

gastric pain,
cramps,
the intense stress,
pressure,
infection,
the undone work,
projects,
deadlines,
money matters,
fear,
mum's naggings,
fats gained due to the snacks i have been munchin the last few days,
my fuckin neighbours
blasting their music and sings karaoke in the mornin when we are slepin.
they sings badly.
she will b out of her mind late at nite.
screaming at the top of her voice!
and
blahs
blahs
blahs.
...

they are all gettin on my nerves.
i dread studyin nowadays.

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Thursday, July 5, 2007
i HATE myself.
damn moodless over all my undone work.
PROJECTS PROJECTS PROJECTS!
ahhh!
i HATE them all.
i seriously dun like studyin nowadays.
so stressed up.
messed up my whole life.
nearly lose a fren.
all bcos of my fuckin attitude.
tell him to FUCKED OFF WITH HIS LIES.
ohmygod.
wth m i doin. i reali dunno.
RAHH!
SORRY!
dun bother abt all the craps la.
but seriously i wun go ka jiao u and her le.
no more comments.
no more.
dun wish to lose 2 frens by den. =((

i reali HATE MYSELF.
icanttakeallthestress.
realifeellikekillingmyself.

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Tuesday, July 3, 2007
=(
now is 7.34pm.
and im still in sch lib.
doin my ITR-FMM project.
we booked the room till 9pm.
HURHUR. =_=


look at my 2 hardworkin project mates. =)


tok more abt it when im free. :)
get back to my work!
-------------------------------------
back at hm now.
left the sch at 830pm.
YAWNS*
got back my ITR paper tdy.
wasn veri well done. 38/50.
celestia got 44/50.
melissa got 48/50.
aiyer. i DUN LIKE U ALL. so lihai lor. =/
LOLs.
LALALA~
i dun like DEADLINES.
insufficient time.

5/7: BMGT lecture summary and project draft.
6/7: ITR-FMM proposal handup, LMS role play plus presentation.
12/7: ITR-FMM project presentation in formal wear. -__-
13/7: MAEC test 2.
16/7: CIP project.
20/7: IAC douments handup, LMS posts on blog.
23/7: BMGT project.
and some missin stuff i guess.

H E C T I C july.

i shld start to pia liaos.
all my coursemates are doin well in their work.
ohmygod.
poly life isnt tat GREAT afterall. ='(

gonna stay up late 2nite.
to complete the BMGT e-learnin stuff and lec summary.
LMS script to b edited.
the summary to b completed.
the blog posts.
CIP e-learnin stuff too.

hope to RUNAWAY.

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Thursday, June 21, 2007
KILL ME!
im LATE for projects again. -__-
haiis. dunno how to solve tis sleepin disorder.
SORRY to all of them.
ALL my project-mates. :(

anyway, ytd de LMS project.
i got nth to say abt the guys.
halfway went to play soccer den leave mi and shihui to complete the presentation.
still lie to us tat they have to go back to sec sch.
wth.
ANGRY.

tdy de PBL project ok la.
at least we did sth. =)

KILL ME!
pls cut there~ x_x

my wrist and celestia's wrist.

hahahs.
dun worry ppl. we are not tryin to harm ourselves.
we are jus being BO LIAO la.
tryin to imitate. LOLs. =X
nehh. we copied tis! =D

hees. tml is MCDONALDS' outin!
wwee~
u guys dun MISS mi wors.
LOLs. BHB eunice* =_=

anyway, sth nice for u guys. :)
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/21423447/
recommended by celestia too!
i LOVE it! <3
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nowadays, i get EMO easily at nite.
i tink i reali need some time to get over the matter.
im reali tryin veri hard to b HAPPY.
yeh. im doin it well.
but i was teared up inside.
i reali dunno wat m i doin.
is it reali GOOD for mi to have tat smile on my face all day?
but inside mi, i feel real tired.
i dunno if i can carry on pretendin to b HAPPY.
but sometimes, i admit, im happy.
all the fun i had wid my frens.
i LOVE the fun and joy and laughters.
however, wherever i goes, i tink abt u.
all the memories keep comin back to me.
the bus stop, the roadside, the void deck blahs.
its reali hard for me to 4get.
the time was short, honestly.
i reali HOPE tat i can 4get everything.
WADEVA and ANYTHING abt YOU.

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Friday, June 8, 2007
HELPLESS.


CTs are finally over.
i dunno wats goin on.
wat are u goin to do?
u asked mi to wait until holis den say de.
mus i continue waitin?
for dunno wat to happen.
i dunno wat to do.
i reali dunno.
u neber tell mi anyting.

sometimes i was wondering..
why am i still holdin on but u are not puttin in any effort to tis relationship?
why am i still troubled and stressed?
why am i still tinkin abt u?
didn i told myself not to?
i keep tinkin tat all i need is frens and i can let go of u without a single tear.
but it seems so hard.
are u waitin for mi to bring it out?
or are u reali tryin to solve the matter between us?
all these questions are left unanswered.
i felt empty.
have u ever tink whether its fair to me?

i noe its nobody's fault.
mayb i asked for too much.
mayb i expected too much frm u.
mayb im not perfect for u.
mayb..
im not the one for u.

i guess..
we couldn go on anymore.
ur feelings are not there.
ur heart is not there.
or mayb my heart is not there anymore.
i cant carry on anymore.
im so tired.

although i reali dun wish to lose u.
but.
i reali dunno wad to do.

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